Confidence is sexy, but Jesus is flawless

The best thing a woman can wear is confidence.

I can’t tell you how many times I have thought this to myself, begging myself to at least appear confident. I look at one of my best friends and simply in her confidence, she unknowingly draws guys to her like magnets.

And I cannot tell you how many guys – guys I’ve dated, guy friends, guys I’ve liked – have told me “Jaymie, you need to have more confidence. THAT is most attractive”. But it doesn’t help.
Last night I was at a fancy dress party. And the dress I wore was a little more showy that what I am used to wearing, being as I usually wear shirts that ride my neck. For many of girls, this is a confidence booster time! For me it was a killer. A compliment from my female friends here and there would give me just enough hope to make it through each of my own killing insults for myself.

I started begging myself, please just act confident. At least for yourself, please! But I couldn’t. Being confident is not something I can be – I am much too insecure and obvious in that emotion.

Then I whispered, finally, “Jesus. Jesus, give me confidence in You. Give me Your confidence. Please”

While my relationship with God is rarely feelings based anymore, I felt this. Physically, I felt myself stand straighter and my chin lift higher. But emotionally, mentally! I felt myself feeling… confident! Not in my appearance. Not in any type of worldly pride. I just had no need for shame. I had no use for insecurities. With the power of Jesus in me, those are NOTHING. Smushed in His love.

“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me” – Galatians 2:20

And while I struggled throughout the night, I kept taking it to Jesus. And I kept smiling, I kept dancing, I kept laughing.

And it was beautiful. And you know what? I was beautiful.

Because it is ok that I am weak. It is ok that I struggle with a different kind of pride. It is ok that who I am, without Christ, is a huge mess and a wreck.

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me” – 2 Corinthians 12:9.

What is a weakness of yours? Don’t be afraid to share. :)

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2 thoughts on “Confidence is sexy, but Jesus is flawless

  1. Jaymie, you seriously make me amazed at you all the time! God is doing amazing things in your heart in preparation for your tip to Nigeria. I struggle with the same thing and I will definitely try your method next time I have one of those nights.

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