“it’s part of my personality, you know? i go to church and i know shouldn’t sit in the back, waiting for it to be over, but i do. just get in and get out, don’t see anyone. but i know God is telling me i can’t do that, church isn’t one hour a week that i sit and then get out of. but i’m introverted by nature, so then i wonder if being something else would be being untrue to myself. so should i really do this? and then God says ‘yes! yes you do because I tell you to’ and i realize that of course i do it, if i did whatever i felt like doing, i’d be living in constant sin”
– my salt team rep
I relate to this so much. I never do this at home, where I’m anxious to run around and hug everyone after the service, but I live every day so introverted. and while I don’t need to force myself to be an extrovert, I allow the term to justify anti-social behavior and passivity that isn’t biblical at all, that undercut the kingdom of God in my life.
So as I work on trying to be more assertive, I want to focus on being more loving, on exposing the kingdom of God to the people around me. It’s JUST FINE not to be comfortable (encouraged, really) – that’s an american thing, not a God thing.
“No one sews a patch of unshrunk cloth on an old garment. Otherwise, the new piece will pull away from the old, making the tear worse. And no one pours new wine into old wineskins. Otherwise, the wine will burst the skins, and both the wine and the wineskins will be ruined. No, they pour new wine into new wineskins.”
– Mark 2:21-22
Iwas texting a friend this morning, before any of this entered my mind and said “Remember that we should be grateful for what we have doesn’t always solve feeling miserable. We have to dig in deep and change our lifestyles. Is that true?” and he said back “God doesn’t just want to change the bad things about us- he’s trying to make us into a new kind of creature – even our understanding of ‘good things’ has to be renovated – even things we do that we think are ok need to be torn down and rebuilt”
“Wake up, sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”
– Ephesians 5:14b
Tell me any thoughts or anything please :]